I'd love to say that the bird on the wire isn't me but it is. It seems to me that the clearer I become about what I'm doing and where I'm going, the more confused I get about what I'm doing and where I'm going.
This sketch made me laugh when it popped into my head. The idea that a crow sitting on a telegraph wire could feel the same way as some of us humans helps make sense of the fact that there is sometimes no sense.
Pick a course that makes you happy and plod along. There will always be 'what am I doing?' moments on the way. Well, there are for me anyway.